Untitled.

"Is that really all you care about?"

That quote really has no significance to this post.



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I really shouldn't be this unhappy.

I say I am used to it.

I have so much to say but don't know how to say it.

Don't you hate that?

Communication.

Umm.
Sometimes I think technology has completely slaughtered what should be appropriate in communication, and what media people should use to communicate.

To explain what I mean, let me tell you a little anecdote of this morning's happenings...

I'm lying in bed and it's about time that I need to get up, so I do what I do every morning, check my phone. I see that there are two text messages. I figured they were either random people or just two text messages from facebook, alerting me that someone has written on my wall or whatnot. However, I got two text messages from my mother, who is at work.

My mother?
It was actually one text message that was so lengthy, it was broken into two.
I am going to summarize it's general message,

"If you don't get a job by May 1st, I am going to stop paying for your phone and your car."

This is where I, who had just woken up minutes before, stare in unbelief.

No, not because I have to get a job.
No, not because I have until May 1st.

BECAUSE IT WAS IN A TEXT. MESSAGE.

Okay, well, I don't know about you, but if you're telling your kid you're going to pretty much be cutting them off next month, I don't think that it's appropriate to communicate that in a text message.

Is the Transactional Model of Communication completely obsolete? The Transactional Model being where there is a constant flow of communication, the sender and the receiver both sending messages, face to face.

Well, of course we still talk face to face! That's silly, right?
Sure we still talk face to face. But do we talk about things important? Life changing? Personal?

It seems that most of what I find out that is quite...heavy has been through text messages. Or emails.

Then again, one may say,
"Well your mom was at work! She needed to tell you!"

Sure
But, she could have easily waited until she got home to tell me in person.

Oh, and the text message also said something around the lines of,
"You stay up all night you need to get a job"
or something.
And of COURSE, I get that text message the one night I actually choose to fix that. I went to bed at 11:00pm! To fix that! I was tired! But of course, if I bring up that point, she will probably just think it an excuse. This kind of thing happens to me all the time.

*exhale*
I don't really have anything else to say.

Like all the things you can't explain.

Well, today was a lovely Easter. General Conference was awesome (though, it was hard to hear over loud voices of my little cousins).

My room is clean. I'm happy about that.
At least there is one thing to be happy about.

My best friend's wedding is this coming weekend. It was just yesterday that we were silly teenagers getting into mischief and going on adventures in the creeks, spending the night at each others' houses, going to the lake, filming funny videos, all that stuff. A lot happens when you're best friends for 10 years. Then all of the sudden, there's a wedding. And incidentally, a baby on the way.

Growing up is so weird.

Anyway, I'm going to be the photographer at her wedding, so that's cool. I want to do a good job for her. I think I do well at my craft.

I guess those summer days don't last forever.

Life is changing.



People living in competition,
all I want is to have my peace of mind.

Have some composure.

Come on, this is screaming photo-op.
Come on, come on,
this is screaming,
this is screaming,
this is screaming photo-op.

Boys will be boys, baby.
Boys will be boys.
Boys will be boys, baby.
Boys will be boys.

Give me envy,
give me malice,
give me your attention!

Give me envy,
give me malice,
baby, give me break!

When I say "shot gun",
you say "wedding"
"shotgun"
"wedding"
"shotgun"
"wedding"




I am so ridiculously fed up.
With ALL of you.

You are.

I am strongly considering the impossible.

Who knows?

At a red light.

Seriously, what is wrong with people today?

Thanks for never telling me anything. I have to find out EVERYTHING through facebook. What a best friend relationship that is.

Oh, but you talked to me, yeah. When you needed something. That's when I'm only useful right? I know I'm being stupid about this and that's not the case, but it sure feels that way.

Then this chick? Why in the world did she decide going 20mph was a good idea when I was trying to get to school? And a teenager at that. Umm, speed up. Get your first ticket or something. Or get off the road.

And this other chick? Oh, she was brilliant. She decided to speed past in front of me while I was ON FOOT crossing the crosswalk. If I was walking any faster, I would have been hit. I made sure and gave her the dirtiest look I could muster. Idiots. If only a cop was there to see that. You can get a ticket if you don't yield to pedestrians.

The kids in my math class are annoying. They laugh at the professor. Grow up.
And then I had a midterm in bowling.
I still don't think I did the scoring right.

And I've never been so worried about you.

*exhale*
What a crappy day.
At least I have wonderful Australian treats. <3

And music.



So you say,
"Yeah, I'm alright."
You are the fortunate all the time,
yeah, you are the fortunate.