You are.

I am strongly considering the impossible.

Who knows?

At a red light.

Seriously, what is wrong with people today?

Thanks for never telling me anything. I have to find out EVERYTHING through facebook. What a best friend relationship that is.

Oh, but you talked to me, yeah. When you needed something. That's when I'm only useful right? I know I'm being stupid about this and that's not the case, but it sure feels that way.

Then this chick? Why in the world did she decide going 20mph was a good idea when I was trying to get to school? And a teenager at that. Umm, speed up. Get your first ticket or something. Or get off the road.

And this other chick? Oh, she was brilliant. She decided to speed past in front of me while I was ON FOOT crossing the crosswalk. If I was walking any faster, I would have been hit. I made sure and gave her the dirtiest look I could muster. Idiots. If only a cop was there to see that. You can get a ticket if you don't yield to pedestrians.

The kids in my math class are annoying. They laugh at the professor. Grow up.
And then I had a midterm in bowling.
I still don't think I did the scoring right.

And I've never been so worried about you.

*exhale*
What a crappy day.
At least I have wonderful Australian treats. <3

And music.



So you say,
"Yeah, I'm alright."
You are the fortunate all the time,
yeah, you are the fortunate.

I know it's mad.

Honestly, I want to forget about the past. But I can't help remembering all the times you screwed me over.

And I never told you a thing.




Doc, there's a hole where something was,
Doc, there's a hole where something was.

I miss you.

Through playful lips made of yarn.

Do I complain too much?
I don't think I do.
Do I stay up too late?
Why, yes I do.
Is it worth it?
Most likely.
Do I procrastinate?
Absolutely.
Do I care about you?
Not even a question.
Do I worry about you?
Just as much as I breathe.

Do you complain too much?
I don't think so.
Do you stay up too late?
Just as much as I do.
Is it worth it?
You never say it is.
Do you procrastinate?
Worse than I do, dear.
Do you care about me?
...You do, right?
Do you worry about me?
...Do you?




She held the world upon a string,
but she didn't ever hold me.
Spun the stars on her fingernails,
but it never made her happy,
cause she couldn't ever have me.

I remember the view.

Hmmm, today was...interesting. :>

I saw the sunset. My favorite thing ever.
And you talked to me. And we laughed.
You don't know how much that means to me,
that you look at me.


A lot to do this weekend... Lunch with dad tomorrow, promptly followed by starting on homework. Crawfish Saturday? I think?



All my clothes smell like you,
cause you're favorite shade is navy blue.

There's lots of those friendly people.

*exhale*
It's kind of interesting how a week can go by extremely slow or extremely fast. This week was the latter. I've got a lot to do this weekend, though. Perhaps the weekend will go by slow. Honestly, I hope it does. I need all the time I can get.


Where are you? You feel so far away. I know you always come back eventually, though, but don't be too long, please. You know I need you. And I KNOW you need me. Shoot me a text every once in a while. One text goes a long way. Even if it's one word. I have a lot of those.

I've been realizing lately that it really doesn't matter what other people think. I remember that when I'm driving in the car. Then I get out of my car and I forgot everything I just thought. Funny. Reminds me of something. Then again, I guess it's not that funny, is it?

If you read this, I'm sure you think I make no sense.
That's okay.




Things are shaping up to be pretty odd,
Little deaths in musical beds,
So it seems I'm someone I've never met.

What about the forests?

Ahhhhh. So back to school today. I was super freaking tired, but it was okay. Math was aight, bowling was okay. I almost hit 100! I'm getting better.

I mailed two packages today! One to my friend in Australia and one to my friend in Wales. Very excited for them to get it. :> I mailed them all kinds of American things.

I am not motivated to do homework. I think I'll get my math homework out of the way first.


<3


Hello, teacher, tell me what's my lesson;
look right through me, look right through me.

Good evening, shuttle bus.

Oh man, spring break was absolutely NOTHING like I expected it would be.

At.
All.

Who would have thought that not having many plans would actually...be okay. I basically sat in my room all week (minus..Friday) and had THE best spring break ever. Now, that's going to sound really stupid, right? Well. To some. All I can say is skype is fan-freaking-tastic.

Something simple as making a new friend can completely change everything. Ha, my best friend is evidence of that. Even if making that new friend didn't completely change your entire life, they still...changed a part of it. Now I'm wondering if that's WAYYY too deep. *shrugs*

School monday. It's surreal. This week made me feel like I didn't go to school. Gah. Back to the grind...




If we could sit together a moment,
and talk forever just to pass the time,
I would smile as the shivers and chills run down my spine,
when you're eyes are locked on mine.

If you do, if you don't.

Let’s get out,
Let’s get out of here
I’ll go it alone if I have to,
but I need you there
And I’m honest with nobody else,
Whether or not I make it there is will itself
And I’m honest with only myself
How I can’t afford to lose you now?
Not in this hell

But I’ll stay with you

I’m a mess,
A total wreck,
A poor excuse without you near to keep me in check,
So take me out, take me anywhere,
I’m out of touch with everything,
And I don’t care
So I must be out of my mind,
All that I have to give to you is all my time

So I’ll stay with you
And we'll say over and over;
Baby, I'm a waste of time

I love it when you come over to my house.

You and me. Let's roadtrip. For real. Please? <3





I'd send a postcard to you dear,
cause I wish you were here.

I want your love.

Ahhhh today was a fantastic day. :)

Had my last two classes (my third class was canceled!) before spring break...and now I am officially on spring break! No classes on Friday ftw. Last night I worked on a present for the bff--a prismacolor drawing of me and him with a collage of pictures of us from over the years for the border (which was supposed to be for his bday, so it's laaate...but oh well)--and so when I got out of class I hung out with him and gave his present to him. He loved it. I love giving people things and I love when they like them, especially if they are homemade. I did good! Thank goodness I'm good at something. I mess up a lot...

I helped the bff with homework before he had an exam to take in the library. I like helping him. Then I chilled for about an hour after that while he took his exam...At that point it was about 6ish. I had been at school since 10am! Long time. But I enjoyed it. After that we went to Taco Bell cause I was freakin hungry! Just like old times. Funny how memories and "old times" are created. Never would have thought a Taco Bell would be involved. We're regulars there now.

So then same old same old, went back to the bffs house afterwards and hung out til laaaaaate, like it should be. Left about midnight, and nowww I'm home typing this.

I have a good feeling about spring break. I have a good feeling about this weekend. Thank goodness. Thank YOU.

Maybe I am crazy.



I want your love and I want your revenge,
you and me could write a bad romance.

Oh, darling I know what you're going through.

Oh my goodness I need to CHILL OUT.

Anyway, I had a midterm today. It was easy. I have so much to do with about...ZERO motivation. This is awesome. This is going to be short.



Lying there with a halo in her hair she cried,
"There are feathers everywhere! But, it's fine, you do this all the time."

The silence isn't so bad.

What an adventure the last few days have been. Friday, me and Britt ventured down to Forth Worth. The drive there was fine, until we got into downtown. We got sort of turned around...but eventually found our way to the Modern Museum of Art. The Andy Warhol exhibit was pretty cool in my opinion. Some very interesting works that I did now know existed by him. I think my favorite was the piece with all the photographed portraits of famous people. Oh boy, did Warhol thirst for fame.

Saturday I went to the park. It was beautiful outside. Got some good shots, too. Some of the sky, some of some trees. It was lovely. I am so behind in my photo editing, though. I still have a bajillion snow day pictures to edit. And now park day. But, I took some updated preggo pics for Britt on Saturday, also, and I got all those edited super fast. They turned out good, though. But jeez, I have got to finish editing my ice berries series. I've only got one done. Jeez. It's a good thing I'm not getting paid for this, I'd be fired haha. (Although holy crap it'd be cool if I were payed for this.) Haha, have any photo editing needs? Let me know. I take cash. Hahaha.

Today was yucky yucky...and cold. Bi-polar weather at its best. I stayed in after church and spent most of the day in bed. I studied a bit too. Midterm on Tuesday. One week til spring break. I should be way more excited. I am, yes. But, yet, I always have a slightly sinking feeling when I get time off school because I never know if I will have plans or if something super amazingly fun will happen. I hate ending up being bored. Hopefully that won't be the case. (And I better get to see YOU. Please don't ignore me during spring break. Please.)



We got older,
and I should have known,
that I feel colder when I walk alone;
so I may as well ditch my dismay,
bombs away, bombs away.

All was golden.

I absolutely did not feel like going to World Lit II today, so I slept in and only went to my two last classes today. For some reason it felt like the longest day of MY LIFE. I don't know why. I felt bad because I was in a touchy mood when I went to see the bff after class. :/

OH MY GOODNESS. It's such a nice day out. 66 and sunny. Perfect. We'd better enjoy it while it lasts, cause it won't last long. I wish I had a bike. I want to ride a bike. I think I may ask for a bike for my birthday, haha.

Tomorrow should be an adventure. Going on a mini road trip with Britt to go to an art gallery in Fort Worth. We're going to see an Andy Warhol exhibit, cool. I'm pretty excited. I like Andy Warhol, contrary to some people.

OH, EXCITING NEWS!
I am going to see Owl City in April! So stoked.



All was golden in the sky;
all was golden when the day met the night.

As if you actually were inside a saltwater room.

Well. Today was just a miserable day. Weather wise, I mean. It was RAINY and COLD and WINDY and...miserable. I didn't bring but a light jacket to school because it wasn't that cold when I left...but it got FREEZING later on to the point I was violently shivering on the way to my car to go to bowling class. Bad experience. Plus, mix in the rain spotting on my glasses, affecting my vision. Hahah. I made it to my car, though.

AND THEN THE 90s WINDBREAK SAVED THE DAY.

I have this box of old clothes and such in my car that my dad told me to take to donation and I haven't yet, so when I got in my car, wet and cold, I look in the box and there's this old Adidas windbreaker on top. I didn't care that it looked like it was straight out of an episode of Full House, it was COMFY and WARM. I probably looked like a dork walking into the bowling alley, but I honestly didn't care. And then I proceeded to fail at bowling, not even breaking a score of 100, but ohhh wellll.

Are you there?
Or are you just a decoy dream in my head?