You set my soul alight.

Last week was absolutely incredible. Like old times. Oh my gosh, I'm so extremely relieved and happy. I am so happy to be back at his house more than 3 time a week, most likely annoying his family by taking their parking spots and making the dogs bark every time I show up. It's good to be at my other home again. <3 This is how summer is supposed to be. The end.

We started playing a browser game together. I've never played a game like this, but I am enjoying it and he is helping me out. Awesome.

We're partners, kinda. I help him out with mixes and his radio show. I'm so proud of that boy. He's gunna go far. I designed him business cards and am in the process of making a flier with tear off numbers. Need a DJ? Let me know.

Oh, right. Let's talk about me for a minute. My job is going well, I really really like it. My co-workers are friendly, as well as my manager. She is extremely understanding. I'm getting better at engraving. I engraved my first frame last week. I also engraved a few other things. It's really cool seeing the customer's reaction at the work that you did. I did good.

This week is going to be busy. Working Mon, Wed-Fri. It's Memorial Day tomorrow, I'm wondering how busy it will be.. Either way, it's going to get super busy with more summer wedding orders and definitely graduation, which is next week. Ahh, my senior friends are graduating. Congrats to them. I'm a sophomore in college already? Life is crazy.

There's something heavy on my mind I don't want to bring up. Well, actually, I'm back and forth with it. One moment I am concerned and the other moment I am looking at the big picture, knowing that it is worth it in the end and I will always come back.

Ahahaha, I'm not going to tell you. I cleaned my room today, thank goodness. It helps with my stress. One time I brought that up with a friend and said that when my room is clean I am less stressed out. All they said was, "lol", like I was kidding or something. I don't see what's so funny. People are bizarre.

This is getting long.
This week is going to be long.
But I'm going to Six Flags on Saturday. Should be fun. And hot.

I feel like I'm getting muscle spams. I should probably go to bed. Work tomorrow 12-6.



On crystal sand,
we sleep hand in hand,
while soothing words
hover like hummingbirds.

You set my soul alight.

Last week was absolutely incredible. Like old times. Oh my gosh, I'm so extremely relieved and happy. I am so happy to be back at his house more than 3 time a week, most likely annoying his family by taking their parking spots and making the dogs bark every time I show up. It's good to be at my other home again. <3 style="font-style: italic;">On crystal sand,
we sleep hand in hand,
while soothing words
hover like hummingbirds.

Don't be thinking that I don't want you.

Heh, well I knew it.

And it's over.


It was fun while it lasted.

It's okay.
It's all going to be okay.

Hold to the love that you know.

I honestly don't know why I act like that sometimes. I should stop it. I mean, seriously. I should be happy about what I can control, not upset at what I can't change. I'm sorry.

I know you probably get sort of annoyed when I keep holding on to you when you pull away from a hug. I just really really really love your hugs. They mean a lot, as dumb as that sounds. It's all I got, ya know? I really hate leaving, too. So much. I'm just sad, aren't I? I don't know.

Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you so much.

This weekend was pretty fantastic. The bff's two days in a row. That hasn't happened in a very long time. I love it I love it I love it.

The summer is starting out to be quite promising. I like this.

Wednesday, come soon, okay?


But I don't want this to all go to my head.
Cause then my head confuses my heart.
And that never ends well.

I am okay.
I am okayyy.


Calm down, emotions.
You've got your best friend.

Your soul will be okay.

It's all going to be okay. The words were said. The action is already being taken. It's not all just talk. This is real.

Not only were the words said, THAT word was said. A word that was really not spoken of before. That was dodged. And I didn't say it first.



"Robert Chase is my best friend!"
"Well, he sounds like a lucky guy."


Oh, life.
<3



Things are looking up, oh, finally.
I thought I'd never see the day that you smile at me.

Untitled II.

And that sentence saved my life.

<3

Exhale the stress.

So it's finally summer time! Yay! I would be celebrating more if I didn't work all weekend! But I am hanging out with Robert tomorrow when we get off work, yay!

Oh my goodness, so many exclamation marks.

I am just excited. No more homework! Well, until July 13, when summer school starts, but whatever. :]

I saw my bff tonight! I missed him so. :[ He was practicing his DJing with all his freaking sweet equipment. His turntable is pretty. I'm so proud of him. :D

I'm tired, haha. Can you tell?


And we should have know that we'd grow up sooner or later,
cause we wasted all our free time alone.

I feel like such an insomniac.

So, I've got a job. Technically a seasonal job, but a job. It will get me through the summer. I start Friday. I'm kind of nervous. I hope I do okay. I have an eight hour shift, followed by another eight hour shift Saturday. What wonderful timing, I'm working all weekend when I've got exams the next week, hahaaaa. Lovely. I will be fine, though...

I'm nearly finished with my first year of college. It wasn't too bad at all. It just.. really made life go by a lot faster than it normally does. I mean, after graduation last June, the rest of that year was a complete blur. My birthday is also coming up. I have no problem with leaving eighteen behind. At all. Some of my friends are turning twenty this year. THAT, I cannot fathom. At all. Weren't we all just sixteen? Able to drive? Able to get jobs? Now we're leaving teenage hood. Well, not yet. But soon. Life is exciting, yet, at the same time I try my hardest to imagine that I'm still at Plano East. I miss it so much.

I really hope this summer is better than last summer. The only good part about last summer was my road trip in August. Everything else was lame. Well, I guess this summer will be better because I'll actually have some money. Sweet. But, he's still pretty much ignoring me. You can't do this to me this summer, you hear me? My patience is seriously growing thin.

I guess the truth of the matter is I'm terrible with change.
Always have.


My gosh, I ramble a lot.

You know, I DO exist.

I'M RIGHT HERE.